The Wishful Writer: Affliction or Sabotage

The only time I have picked up my pen This year has been to write for this blog. There are many reason– Nope. There are many excuses holding me back. I have quite a few Novel and short story ideas on the backlog that very well could be in the process of being written. My pen Just became too heavy to hold.

Lately, the well of ideas (and maybe life) have run dry. Which shouldn’t be a problem because as I mentioned I have a stockpile of ideas waiting to be written. Yet, the lack of new ideas feels like a lack of creativity. Something I fear to be catastrophic to my stories.

Along with my creativity slithering away right in front of me, so too has my passion for those aging stories. Somewhere in time the honeymoon phase faded with these stories. Maybe I was never in love. But now I feel like I have to settle with these because who knows when the next love will come along.

People write blogs as a way to make money and some to help others. I write blogs to practice my writing while trying the spark creativity and confidence in my work. (while loosing money on this beautiful website.) I Wrote this post in particular to show myself how ridiculous my problems are. By writing this I have shown myself the only problem is me.

The pen might be heavy, but if I keep picking it up I will build the strength to carry my stories to wherever it is they need to go.

Favorite and Least Favorite Read of 2019

In 2019 I read 16 books. That’s the most amount of books I have ever read in a year and I am pretty proud of that. (That’s why I mention it every blog :P) With books there is always going to be some you don’t finish, some you read over and over again because you love them so much and some you just hate.

So, like I did last year I would like to look back and choose my favorite read of 2019, with the addition of least favorite read. Every book I read this year -other than one- was fantasy or sci-fi. I don’t typically read outside those genres. But this year I did read an autobiography and its not my least favorite read! But lets hop in to what is my least favorite read shall we?

My least favorite read of 2019 without a doubt is Coldfall Woods by Steven Saville. From the very beginning of this book it didn’t really jive with me but I pushed on to at least half way but I just couldn’t finish it. Its’ set in and uses the same characters as another story by Saville but this is not classified as a sequel. I could be wrong but for the most part it read as a stand alone.

When it comes to writing it can be hard to spot your own mistakes. I can guarantee my work is littered with them. But as of now I am not a published author. This book had an abundance of spelling mistakes and incomplete sentences. Sentences would abruptly stop and I would be confused as to what was happening in the scene. There were also other sentences that just made zero sense but were complete and without errors that had the same impact on me.

Along with the spelling errors there was constant repetition. He always used the same big words like he had just learned them or the same phrase constantly and that bothered me. The whole story is about a “Horned God” and every single time -it seemed- the “Horned God” Was mentioned he was called by all 8 names he is known by. I get it, hes a god of many names, I don’t need to read half a paragraph every time you mention him.

The last thing I want to talk about is one particular seen. This scene was the dagger for the novel. It had to be the most fucked up thing I have ever read. I’m just going to leave a little piece of it here. I am sorry in advance.

The first children dragged him down to the ground.

Their appetite was insatiable.

Danny felt their hands all over him, pulling at his jeans, tugging at the buckle of his belt, at his boxers, lowering them even as more kisses smothered his face. The kisses reached his neck, and as they tore at the buttons of his shirt, down the flat planes of his stomach, not stopping as they traced the tight lines of muscle down to his cock. Tiny hands stroked him as their lips closed on his mouth and more hands covered his eyes.

It ends with a needless description of why the god who now straddled Danny was hard….. again sorry.

Now, just burn that from your memory and lets move on. Choosing my favorite read this year was a bit challenging as I read a lot of books that I really enjoyed. But the series in which I chose my favorite read I have wanted to read for quite some time. I saw the movies when I was a kid and never got around to reading them because I didn’t read much as a kid.

My Favorite read of 2019 Is the Lord of The Rings by J.R.R Tolkien. If I had to specify I would choose The Return of The King. It takes the cake for me because of all the action, even when I thought the action was over there was more.

The reason this is my favorite read is because it was a challenging read for me. From the size of the books -even though half of ROTK is an appendix- to the amount of words that I just didn’t know and had to look up. Some parts of the series I did find a little boring with extremely long descriptions. But these descriptions were laced with history of Middle-Earth and did end up being one of my favorite parts. Just how much history there is to Middle-Earth and beyond and how little we actually know is impressive to me.

I won’t go on and on about Lord of The Rings because I think everyone knows how good the stories are by now. But I would like to also put in some honorable mentions to my favorite read of the year. I have 3.

  1. The Hobbit by J.R.R Tolkien. Because well duh.
  2. Abomination by Gary Whitta. I really enjoyed this one. A fantasy set in old England. Click Here for full review.
  3. What does this button do? Bruce Dickinson an autobiography. I have always thought of Bruce Dickinson as the most interesting man in the world and this book did not disappoint.

That’s it, that’s all. Thanks for reading. Let me know what your favorite read of 2019 was, down in the comments!.

Looking Back On 2019

For me 2019 was supposed to be the year my whole life changed. I set out goals and I was determined to turn everything around. It was the year I was going to get back to having a steady income, the year I learned to control my anxiety and depression and the year I accomplished all the writing projects I have been wanting to finish.

But 2019 looked a lot like 2018 in a sense. I believed I was happy and moving in the right direction. Early in the year my close friends Anxiety and Depression came to have a chat. I could no longer bring myself to go to work. I couldn’t find work. No scratch that, great jobs came knocking on my door but I couldn’t get myself to the opportunity. And I started beating myself up about it and that just made everything worse.

Unlike 2018 though, I managed to bounce back quicker and I believe stronger. I have set myself out new goals that if I work at them everyday I will be able to accomplish. I am feeling determined and ready to take on the year!

Unfortunately I didn’t manage to accomplish any of my goals in 2019 as some were just way over my head and others I didn’t give enough attention to. But the goal I wanted to complete the most was to finish the first draft of a novel. I have had some great Ideas (writers always do, til they go to write them down) But I just wasn’t in the right place to work on them. I have two works in progress right now and I am going to read through them and decide which one to give my attention to. Because I WILL be making some head way this year!

Falling back into old habits has definitely halted my creative progress. I come home from work and either watch tv or play video games until bed. doing that keeps my mind blank and if its blank I don’t think negativity and spiral out of control. But I have already found myself chipping away at the time I spent doing that and managing to work more on my blog or reading more and slowly but surely I will get to where I want to be.

There was one goal that I came really close to achieving and that was my reading goal. In 2018 I read 11 books ( don’t judge I have never been a huge reader) and I made a goal to read 20 in 2019. I managed to read 16 and that’s a huge feat for me! This year I am going to keep the goal the same and I will most likely smash it as I get more engrossed in books now and fly through them!

As much as this year has been a bummer, much like the last couple of years, it has been good. I am at a job that I can see myself at for a long time. The people I work with are all awesome. When I have “dark” days they brighten much quicker and I actually learn more about myself. The dark days are also becoming father and father apart.

So, 2019 has been a mediocre year and that’s better than bad. 2020 already feels like its going to be a great year. When I write a “Looking back on 2020” post it will be much more positive and I will have accomplished way more. So, stick around as I become who I was meant to be! (Start pestering me for that short story I need to edit or it may never come :P)

That’s my 2019 reviewed. How did your year fair? Did you smash all your goals? Have you set goals for this year? Let me know. Thanks for reading and Happy new year!

The Witcher a Netflix Series

Welcome back all! Today, I wanted to discuss my personal opinions of The Witcher series on Netflix and my outlook on it as a whole (Books, Games and TV show.) If you have read my other posts on The Witcher, then you already know I think the story is rather lackluster. But that could very well be my fault so, lets get into it.

I recently binged The Witcher on Netflix and maybe to your surprise, I enjoyed it. At first, I had my reservations about Henry Cavill playing Geralt, but honestly I think he did a fantastic job. A surprise character for me was Jaskier AKA “Dandelion”. I wasn’t sure if, A) he was going to be in the show and, B) if he would be in the first season. He brought a great comedic element to the show and I enjoyed all his scenes.

Now, when it comes to the story itself I thought it was intriguing, it kept me wanting to continue onto the next episode, despite that it was a little tricky to follow at time with the multiple timelines. I am a bit apprehensive still as to where the story might go. All my prior knowledge comes mostly from The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt. But I did also read through Blood of Elves, The Time of Contempt, and Baptism of Fire from Author Andrej Sapkowski. I find the story to be a bit boring (don’t kill me).

Recently I found out I should have read books of short stories first (but the books I read are labelled 1, 2, and 3 sooo….) Reading these short stories might help with the books but I don’t think it would help with the fact that I found them incredibly boring. I feel like for those 3 books all that happened was walking and talking. I prefer more action.

My memory could be a little hazy though as it was a while back now since I read them or maybe I was just in a mood when I read them but who knows. Because of this I may pick them up and give them another shot. So, if the show follows the books closely I am afraid it might become boring.

When it comes to the story for The Witcher 3, It also seems rather boring to me. Both The Witcher 3 and the books I read have the same type of story. But in the game you have Witcher contracts(the best part!) and interesting side quests to help you keep on going.

All in all I enjoyed the first season of Netflix’s The Witcher. I don’t know how good it will continually be. I will watch the second season when it comes out and I have faith it will be good since most modern TV it really well done. But if they stay too close to that story I know it will get boring and I wont be able to watch it anymore.

What are your thoughts on the show? Books? Games? Let me know in the comments! Thanks for reading!

Book Review: Abomination by Gary Whitta

Welcome back to another book review. As always I will give you my opinion about the story without giving away to many spoilers. I believe reviews should be short and spoiler free. This one is Abomination by Gary Whitta, so lets get into it!

This story is Historical Fiction or Horror or Fantasy or all of the above. This book is set in England, 888 AD when the vikings were invading. The King, Alfred the Great, finds himself in a spot of inevitable defeat. King Alfred’s Archbishop Aethelred comes upon some ancient scripture that taught him a kind of magic, (like turning animals into monsters.) Magic he believed could win the war.

Aethelred seems to be consumed by the dark magic and making the perfect abomination to defeat the Danes that he seemed to have forgotten his humanity. Alfred sees this and tries to put a stop to it. In comes the main character Wulfric, who is the kings greatest warrior, but secretly hates killing.

Eventually Wulfric is cursed to become an abomination every night and live out the rest of his live slaughtering villages and hating himself more and more. The rest of the book is 15 years later, hes found ways to control or rather contain the monster. But when the order he founded to slaughter the beasts stumbles upon his trail it gets harder and harder to stay hidden and keep innocent people safe.

That is about as much detail as I will go into. The way Whitta writes kept me engaged and wanting more. I have read other reviews that the beginning of the book was too slow, but I found it very interesting and fast. It is a fairly easy read, some books I get lost in what is trying to be said but, it was very enjoyable.

It was gory in parts, sad in parts and happy in other parts. Not many books I have read can make me feel even the slightest emotion but, this one did it. You can’t help but feel for the main character, as all he ever wanted was a family and a farm.

All I have left to say is it’s a solid 8/10. I would definitely read it again and would recommend it to anyone who likes fantasy in historical settings or just fantasy in general. I thoroughly enjoyed it and I hope you do too!