Looking Back On 2019

For me 2019 was supposed to be the year my whole life changed. I set out goals and I was determined to turn everything around. It was the year I was going to get back to having a steady income, the year I learned to control my anxiety and depression and the year I accomplished all the writing projects I have been wanting to finish.

But 2019 looked a lot like 2018 in a sense. I believed I was happy and moving in the right direction. Early in the year my close friends Anxiety and Depression came to have a chat. I could no longer bring myself to go to work. I couldn’t find work. No scratch that, great jobs came knocking on my door but I couldn’t get myself to the opportunity. And I started beating myself up about it and that just made everything worse.

Unlike 2018 though, I managed to bounce back quicker and I believe stronger. I have set myself out new goals that if I work at them everyday I will be able to accomplish. I am feeling determined and ready to take on the year!

Unfortunately I didn’t manage to accomplish any of my goals in 2019 as some were just way over my head and others I didn’t give enough attention to. But the goal I wanted to complete the most was to finish the first draft of a novel. I have had some great Ideas (writers always do, til they go to write them down) But I just wasn’t in the right place to work on them. I have two works in progress right now and I am going to read through them and decide which one to give my attention to. Because I WILL be making some head way this year!

Falling back into old habits has definitely halted my creative progress. I come home from work and either watch tv or play video games until bed. doing that keeps my mind blank and if its blank I don’t think negativity and spiral out of control. But I have already found myself chipping away at the time I spent doing that and managing to work more on my blog or reading more and slowly but surely I will get to where I want to be.

There was one goal that I came really close to achieving and that was my reading goal. In 2018 I read 11 books ( don’t judge I have never been a huge reader) and I made a goal to read 20 in 2019. I managed to read 16 and that’s a huge feat for me! This year I am going to keep the goal the same and I will most likely smash it as I get more engrossed in books now and fly through them!

As much as this year has been a bummer, much like the last couple of years, it has been good. I am at a job that I can see myself at for a long time. The people I work with are all awesome. When I have “dark” days they brighten much quicker and I actually learn more about myself. The dark days are also becoming father and father apart.

So, 2019 has been a mediocre year and that’s better than bad. 2020 already feels like its going to be a great year. When I write a “Looking back on 2020” post it will be much more positive and I will have accomplished way more. So, stick around as I become who I was meant to be! (Start pestering me for that short story I need to edit or it may never come :P)

That’s my 2019 reviewed. How did your year fair? Did you smash all your goals? Have you set goals for this year? Let me know. Thanks for reading and Happy new year!

The Witcher a Netflix Series

Welcome back all! Today, I wanted to discuss my personal opinions of The Witcher series on Netflix and my outlook on it as a whole (Books, Games and TV show.) If you have read my other posts on The Witcher, then you already know I think the story is rather lackluster. But that could very well be my fault so, lets get into it.

I recently binged The Witcher on Netflix and maybe to your surprise, I enjoyed it. At first, I had my reservations about Henry Cavill playing Geralt, but honestly I think he did a fantastic job. A surprise character for me was Jaskier AKA “Dandelion”. I wasn’t sure if, A) he was going to be in the show and, B) if he would be in the first season. He brought a great comedic element to the show and I enjoyed all his scenes.

Now, when it comes to the story itself I thought it was intriguing, it kept me wanting to continue onto the next episode, despite that it was a little tricky to follow at time with the multiple timelines. I am a bit apprehensive still as to where the story might go. All my prior knowledge comes mostly from The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt. But I did also read through Blood of Elves, The Time of Contempt, and Baptism of Fire from Author Andrej Sapkowski. I find the story to be a bit boring (don’t kill me).


Recently I found out I should have read books of short stories first (but the books I read are labelled 1, 2, and 3 sooo….) Reading these short stories might help with the books but I don’t think it would help with the fact that I found them incredibly boring. I feel like for those 3 books all that happened was walking and talking. I prefer more action.

My memory could be a little hazy though as it was a while back now since I read them or maybe I was just in a mood when I read them but who knows. Because of this I may pick them up and give them another shot. So, if the show follows the books closely I am afraid it might become boring.

When it comes to the story for The Witcher 3, It also seems rather boring to me. Both The Witcher 3 and the books I read have the same type of story. But in the game you have Witcher contracts(the best part!) and interesting side quests to help you keep on going.

All in all I enjoyed the first season of Netflix’s The Witcher. I don’t know how good it will continually be. I will watch the second season when it comes out and I have faith it will be good since most modern TV it really well done. But if they stay too close to that story I know it will get boring and I wont be able to watch it anymore.

What are your thoughts on the show? Books? Games? Let me know in the comments! Thanks for reading!


Book Review: Abomination by Gary Whitta

Welcome back to another book review. As always I will give you my opinion about the story without giving away to many spoilers. I believe reviews should be short and spoiler free. This one is Abomination by Gary Whitta, so lets get into it!

This story is Historical Fiction or Horror or Fantasy or all of the above. This book is set in England, 888 AD when the vikings were invading. The King, Alfred the Great, finds himself in a spot of inevitable defeat. King Alfred’s Archbishop Aethelred comes upon some ancient scripture that taught him a kind of magic, (like turning animals into monsters.) Magic he believed could win the war.

Aethelred seems to be consumed by the dark magic and making the perfect abomination to defeat the Danes that he seemed to have forgotten his humanity. Alfred sees this and tries to put a stop to it. In comes the main character Wulfric, who is the kings greatest warrior, but secretly hates killing.

Eventually Wulfric is cursed to become an abomination every night and live out the rest of his live slaughtering villages and hating himself more and more. The rest of the book is 15 years later, hes found ways to control or rather contain the monster. But when the order he founded to slaughter the beasts stumbles upon his trail it gets harder and harder to stay hidden and keep innocent people safe.

That is about as much detail as I will go into. The way Whitta writes kept me engaged and wanting more. I have read other reviews that the beginning of the book was too slow, but I found it very interesting and fast. It is a fairly easy read, some books I get lost in what is trying to be said but, it was very enjoyable.

It was gory in parts, sad in parts and happy in other parts. Not many books I have read can make me feel even the slightest emotion but, this one did it. You can’t help but feel for the main character, as all he ever wanted was a family and a farm.

All I have left to say is it’s a solid 8/10. I would definitely read it again and would recommend it to anyone who likes fantasy in historical settings or just fantasy in general. I thoroughly enjoyed it and I hope you do too!

The Wishful Writer: We’re strugglin’

Hey There! This month I have been struggling to write. Whether it be for the blog or for my stories. So, I decided I would try and take up another creative outlet, in hopes it would spark some inspiration! I picked up my camera (which I barley know how to use) and started snapping some shots. Here are some highlights! Hopefully I will be back in a groove soon! Until then enjoy!

Wanted an action shot, Dog was happy to oblige.
He hates his picture taken. 1/100 that he will actually look at the camera.

The Wishful writer: Writers and Education (Chapter 2)

Welcome back wishful writers. Today I am throwing a question your way. To be a successful author do you need formal education in it? I know the answers will probably be split but I would like to hear your reasons.

Now as someone who has never liked school, you might think my answer would be no you don’t need education to be a successful writer. But as I get further down the writer road and watch other more experienced writers talk about writing tips and tricks, I am starting to sway to the idea that you do need education. I am not even sure if the people I watch have formal training but it sure seems like it.

When it comes to writing I would consider myself a novice, a beginner, someone who doesn’t know exactly what he is doing. Maybe I have forgotten the few things I learned in high school or maybe I never learned enough to begin with. So, furthering my education could perhaps have gone a long way into shaping me into a capable writer.

In the same breath I have already spent money on school for what I thought was going to be my career. All I feel I was taught was how to pass a test. I never felt like I learned enough to be proficient at the job. I learned everything but doing it. In no way did school benefit me.

I believe its hard, if not impossible to teach creativity. Writing though, is so much more than creativity. you have to be able to articulate the movie playing inside your head so other people can have it play in theirs. you have to know how to organize your words so they come out beautiful and people hang onto each one of them. you also need to know who you are writing for because if you write for the wrong crowd they won’t understand your story. All of this I am clueless on and maybe school could teach me.

I am at a point in my life where it seems impossible to go back to school as well. I don’t have the money and it probably wouldn’t work with my schedule. Does that make me doomed? will I only be just a writer and not an author?

If I did have the possibility to go back to school I know most writers will never make money off their writing or become well know authors. So, how can one justify spending thousands of dollars to go back to school? I, like many others, always dream of selling my story to publishers, but I know my writing doesn’t come close to being anywhere near as good as published authors.

Have you gone to school? has it benefited you greatly? I pass the question off to you once more. Do you need to be educated in writing to be an author? I am very curious what you all think and whether school has helped your writing journey. So, let me know in the comments and have a wonderful day Wishful Writers!